Friday, May 27, 2016

I will not immortalize this moment. But DAMN, who knew it would feel like this!

Tuesday, March 15, 2016

Talked to him. Feeling alone now more than ever. 

Sunday, March 13, 2016

I feel like I'm legit, just letting this wither away. It doesn't feel good, but seems like it just has to happen. I'm not depressed, but I am bored...and lonely...and disappointed as hell. 💔

Friday, February 12, 2016

Screaming into the infinite abyss 

Tuesday, December 01, 2015

How can I be in a relationship and yet feel so lonely?

Sunday, August 09, 2015

Dear Quentin

I have never been more disappointed in anyone than I am in you right now. This is exactly the reason why I keep to myself and don't want to let anyone in. You've broken my heart and I can't say I don't hate you for it. All I can do now is start unravelling my feelings. Start from scratch and learn how to forget you. I've let myself obsess and dream about a future with you. I feel like an idiot now. But you warned me about your tendencies early on...I should have listened. Image from

Thursday, August 06, 2015

I really hate putting this out into the universe, but I feel like soon I'm gonna be gone. 

Monday, August 03, 2015

Sunday, June 28, 2015

This is all of me that I have to leave behind. I don't know what the future holds and quite frankly, I don't care. I'm so tired of my anxiety and constant self doubt. I'm pretty sure this is all karma. I really wish I had more to add to this journal except pain. One thing I do want to say though: I love you Q, but I'm not sure that we can even be friends at this point....

Tuesday, February 24, 2015

I feel like crying. Why am I feeling so lonely right now?

Saturday, February 21, 2015

All I can think you. Everything else is just background noise. 

Thursday, April 24, 2014

I'm ready to be unplugged from the Matrix, please. 

Friday, April 11, 2014

I can't believe I'm back here. Just in case something terrible happens to me, I want you guys to know that I love you. 
Especially you!

Friday, April 04, 2014

I feel like killing myself. I can't tell anyone though. Being a mom is super fucking hard. I'm terrified!

Tuesday, March 26, 2013

Happy 3 months, Harper

I can't believe how big you're getting, darling!

Monday, March 18, 2013

<3 <3

My chunky monkey is getting so big :)

Sunday, March 10, 2013

"Never knew I could feel like this. Like I've never seen the sky before. Want to vanish inside you bliss. Everyday I love you more and more. "

Wednesday, March 06, 2013

I love my braids!!

Last twist out before I put the yarn braids back in!

Tuesday, February 19, 2013

After having a baby, I don't care much about being clever or cynical or the smartest/humblest person in the room anymore. I'm no longer I interested in "cool" things, nor am I on the search for all things "awesome". She's cool. She's awesome. Harper!

Thursday, February 14, 2013

Wednesday, February 13, 2013

Harper Analeigh O'Heath, the new love of my life. Born December 23, 2012. 6lbs 8oz 19in


I feel like screaming and crying. How am I going to make it through this????